Suicide threat response
It really worries me that you have thought about hurting yourself. Please consider picking up the phone and talking to someone who may be able to help you if these thoughts enter your mind again. The Suicide and Crisis Lifeline has trained professionals who specialize in helping people going through depression who think about hurting themselves. The number is 988 and they are open 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. You can also reach them through their online chat feature.